Below are the 2 most recent journal entries recorded in Lady Michelle's LiveJournal:

Thursday, December 29th, 2005
12:57 pm	Cunters to Perfection Aka Expctations A very good friend of mine decided to write stories in her own blog. But as I was reading it, There were two stories that I knew I could counter because of my own life experiences (Menaing in my short 14 years of life). But For now I only wrote one. Expectations Can't seem to find in my brain, Those memories of my yesterday. My head is spinning, with a major headache. I've been thinking too hard lately, Plus the Parent-Forced studying I have to make. Can't they see, I'm not the genius they want me to be... I can't swim like a pro can, I have no photographic memory, I have no idea what the elements are, and I'm not graceful in any sense. It doesn't mean I can drive, if I can name and define every object in a car. It doesn't mean that I'm okay, when I'm not. My self esteem is below zero, I cry myself to sleep. Never before I wanted to reproach, but never did think suicide is the best thing. I know I'll be missed, I know that I will be mourned over. But I would mourn over me every night. I always went straight, my morals the best. In my class the only one with sense. My beliefs are straight, I know I'm on the right path. But why do I feel so sick? The faked faces, my made-up lies, my untrue wishes, and those hollow hypocrite smiles. Can't you see through? I'm not who you thought to be. You think I'm smart, you think I'm pretty You think I'm the best, you think you understand. You think I can help you, you think I can be your kleenex everyday. You think I'll be here today for you to.. Insult, talk to, fake to, lie to, smile, to forwn to, and even joke with. You think I'll be here to tear myself down, and cry myself to sleeb everynight, without you noticing. Because every day, I wait for the sun to rise, and wait... Till your expectations are not the same. And then maybe tomorrow I'll write the Counters to Life Part II: Life=Everything you never wanted.. Current Mood: pensive Current Music: Um.. Nothing really, I'm just in a writing mood. Hehe (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Monday, December 26th, 2005
11:22 am	Uh.. Merry Late Christmas? Merry Late Christmas everyone! Um and happy early New Year's! Nothing has exactly happened so nothing to comment. Its Christmas break and my brain is mush after trying to memorize Romeo and Juliet! And like by the end of January I got a test or something like that! Eek... But then again, why think of school when I'm on a break... Hmm... Why write down my thought on my sucky Junior High life when I'm on a break and it will only make me more depressed..? BECAUSE OF DAMN ANNE FRANK!! She wrote down in her diary during the war and she gets famous. Bah! Has anyone actually read the book?! I mean if I were to sum up all my diary entries just in Junior High, I could make a thinner, funnier, dramatic, and pesimistic book about a 'look into a normal teenager's life' and I would be SO DAMN FAMOUS!!! But oh well I'm stuck here complaining, penniless and chubby. (really I'm jsut complaining I have extra fat that could easily burn by running a quarter of a mile for a week having a balanced meal, but NOO I have to be a fatass and eat ice cream and chocolate chips cookies while typing this... Oooh....SOMEONE is gonna be pissed after they see the keyboard.... Oh damn....) Oh well, bye bye ya'll..! Current Mood: crazy Current Music: Anything.. Though Im lookin 4 My Chemical Romance on MTV heh (3 Comments |Comment on this)